We were supposed to be with her to celebrate her birthday today ...but she changed mind and informed us of an important decision that she hopes her birthday and marriage anniversary can be together... So she and her bf went to marriage registry office instead of  holding a birthday party with friends as usual ...We all know she must be the first one get married among us since she dreams of being his bride:P...but didn't anticipate registry is so early and even so close  to her birthday ...hehe

She messaged me there are over 100 couples in front of them when they arrived at there...It's a long queue ...They waited for hours and finally get their marriage licence . So she becomes a wife and she has a husband now ...^^

Happy for her and also realize that we are really getting old ...I have known her for six years . I still remember the first encounter with her at school...she asked me how to go to the new library . so i accompanyed her to the library and also thought she can be my study partner going to library together later...however, she is not study type at all though she cares  the location of library...First impression cheated me ....hehe, her focus was on love and library was an ideal date place for her and her bf...hahaha...

Expecting her big wedding !

Kh-huuuuuyaaaaaah! ... (Long time I didn't yell this out, but now it's back in my habits... Tension's gone... haha...) My blog is always gonna be so long because... I would write them once a week or once per two weeks only...

FRIDAY (for my real life friends who lurk) - *Fun adventure though*

So friday, on my way back, I decided to go in a cool city I rarely go... I've been informed by a Future Shop guy that many rare stuff are usually found there (he was very helpful and I appreciate that he took his time to give me details and infos)... Apparently, it seems like a very nice place to live too in my opinion... though it's a "lost city" to me... HAHA... Been like ages I haven't been there... So I missed one exit because the highway was weird and the exit popped out so suddenly (with the panel positionned in a hidden way)... What kind of exit was that!?!?! It's like trying to get directly into a parking lot from a highway... It's hard to see an exit like that... It goes down into the wood... (Ok I gotta admit, I also drove too fast)... The next exit was freaking over 20KM away!!! Sheeesh... More like 100KM... How about let's go to Toronto instead... Anyway I was glad to get what I was looking for... Plenty of stuff I was looking for... Wooh hooh! I'll go there more often from now on... Muhuhaha... On my way back, I was so happy, I had fun scaring drivers away by driving very recklessly... HAHAHA! It gives high adrenaline... I also didn't wanna miss hockey... What do you expect from a 20 years old? It's all VROOM VROOM about driving mentality... :P Naaah I drive like a grandma sometimes... Anyway, Lachenaie city power!!! To my fellow Québec people near the region, that place is great because it's so peaceful, away from others... Good place to bring your love or friends haha... It's very new... New stuff developping there... It's crazy... Better than my Repentigny city in terms of building new fun stuff... But Repentigny still owns all in house style... Muhuhaha...

VISITING MY MOM AT HER WORK PLACE TODAY - *Pissed me off*

I found out something sad when I went there... and it made me mad... So all along, that's how my mom works?! So pooooooor!!! She even got submissed by another younger black woman... Way worse than I could ever believe... And my mom spoke too kindly, softly, etc... So I went to talk to my mom and said "what the heck was that?! she's taking advantages of you!"... When people there are at the same ranking, they should all be treated EQUAL, fuckers... That factory got me sick I just wanted to kill everyone breathing the oxygen there... So I made my evil look at everyone... Especially that woman who always took advantgages of my mom... She had an accent like she just freshly immigrated within a year... Well at the end of the day, my mom said that woman became friendly, after so many months of suffering... I didn't do much... That woman probably heard me talking in her back because I talked barely loud enough on purpose for her to hear, in FRENCH... My mom has some language problem so it's hard for her to communicate with others... I'll keep an eye on what people around her do on her... Nobody wants to face her son, that, I can guarantee my life on it.

VISITING MY DAD - *Quite enjoyable*

It was their time to supper... Not my time... My dad bought some bunch of giant oysters... Fresh, still alive... I had fun inspecting them and poking them... Still moving, responding... My dad said "We just have to add lemon juice on it and eat it alive... It's already salty and well seasoned from the sea naturally... Very tasty... Try!"... I said no in no time... So I didn't eat anything until I get here to cook some steak for myself (and it was disgusting really, for a chef like me, it was disappointing... but I don't care, I just cooked for myself... no margarine left to make it juicy, tasty and make the seasoning sticking with the meat rather than sticking on the grill and lose taste... but I knew all that... just botching...)
Just don't do like what I just did there if you want your steaks to taste great...

BORING WEEKEND... BUT...

Now the weekend has passed... It was a boring weekend... I didn't have my usual night moment... But it gave me some time to work... Free time, I chose to write a blog instead of continuing my other cartoon sketch and video editing (current ones are with the editing crew)... Oh yeah! I had to go to the downtown, what a coincidence... I met a long lost friend... AHHHH!!! We walked by, looked at each others, I made my malicious smile and then she shouted my name "Tavaaaanh!?!" and I was like "AHHH?" Hahaha! What a reaction... We had a short talk... Maaan it felt so strange... Since when she wears make up?! Our conversation was so serious... She asked me how I am these days, what I do, if I still live in Montreal so I simply said yeah I'm still in Montreal... She said she was looking for some blah blah blah coat with something I forgot, she talked so fast, she hasn't changed a bit HAHAHA! So I was like "I don't think here is the best place to find it..." so she asked where then? ... I couldn't think so I just said "Well I dunno, it depends where you live, I don't wanna give you the good stores that are too far haha..."... So I asked where she lives now... "ST-MICHEL"... I was like... "That's... far..." but in my mind, I was like "looks like you still live there ever since I knew you"... Man we got so lost in our conversation, too shocking...
We had to seperate and continue to do our own things...
While I was walking away, I was thinking about the old time... That girl... She used to be that girl who liked to jump on my back aggressively and hang on me!!! HAHAHAHA!!!!!!! I always thought it was my other friend (a guy who used to jump on me, too hype) until I felt boobs and long hair on my back... then I knew it was her... HAHA! She also forced to feed me with some orange so I always sarcastically went like "Go ahead and torture me instead"... pffhaha... ahhh old days... I took her as a guy back in the old time... :P I went to take a look on Facebook since we can find almost everyone there... oh yes, there she is:

here

I thought about sending a "psst!" and blah blah but... There are like 50 friends with her who are also my long lost friends... O_O I don't want them all to find out about me though I didn't put my real name... Blah... I'll send her a hello anyway, once I feel like it... and a hello to few other friends...

Another long lost friend, this one was already in my friends list, wanted me to go pay a visit next friday... and then the person would help me out to look for the other 10% for my girlfriend Suuz ;)... If we can't find it, screw it... Way to go 90!

ANYWAY, CAMP MOMENT *EVILNESS ABOUT TO SHOW UP THERE*

Ok, only something bad happened in my training camp... I'm still expecting to go into a test before mid-november or else, I'd kill myself... Something made it look bad...
It's like... You know, when you need something and it's urgent, you order someone in charge of the stocks to give it to you as fast as possible? Well, it's been two f*cking weeks now... I smiled before, but I hardly smile after... I'm losing patience there... The person in charge was an old super fatass with grey hair and thick glasses, way to work as one... B*tch, where are the healthier ones in charge of all this?! Really... I'm pissed off by all these internal shits going on in our building... It's like a joke... What kind of world am I in, now? Truman show? ... Anyway... She wrote the notes in front of me 4 times!!! Everytime I came to her, she had to write it down in front of me... At the end, I was a bit rude so I was like "Ma'am, you are gonna make a huge pile of papers to make the importers/exporters notice about the message?"... She was like "I'm sorryyyyy this is all I can doooo! What are you gonna do about it?"... Well, that was a freaking useless question, I think THAT was supposed to be MY question... Damn straight! What the fuck am I gonna do? I just looked at her like she was stupid... And I was like "I'd like to know, can you tell me where those guys are? I'm gonna go see them..." ... She said that I would have to make a rendez-vous which is gonna be too far for me to handle... Fuck it... I told her to keep trying with the notes and whatever contact she's having... I gave her 2 days... After, I came back for the 5th time which was gonna be my last time, and she looked at me like she was extremely scared... So I got pity on her and I smiled, asking "So ma'am, how's it going?"... She just looked down with a head movement like a "no..." or a sign of disappointement or whatever... Ok, just like I expected... Fuck it... Again... But permanently this time... Really, I can't rely on those types of people...

RRRAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAASSSSHHHH!!! Damn *BLEEP!* Oh that is so *BLEEP!* but *BLEEP!* yes *BLEEP!* haha *BLEEP!*... Thank you very much *BLEEP!* ladies and gentlemen... :)

Is there any schools in your place providing that students could not keep long hair? (not that long, maybe just reach the collar or even shorter than that)

I have one young "boy friend" who is only 15 and still in the middle school now. Few days ago, he told me that their school published a new rule that providing all male students couldn't keep "long hair" and those who with long hair have to cut short to butch haircut. Of course most of the young boys don want to cut their loving hair. They are young, so they are admiring all beautiful things they think, including the hair style they like. But it seems that theres no bargaining on this issue. They were all forced to cut short their hair, even some of them cried when that happening.

Frankly speaking, I dunno if there is any business between the students' quality and the length of their hair. I just think that the school can't / shouldn't do that, especially force students to do sth. My young friend said that this is a kind of invasion of human rights and really very resentful about that. I didn't know what to say and how to explain to relieve his anger.

I know there are really some schools in China made this kind of rules just like in army requesting an uniformity, and don understand why they made this kind of rules and whats the purpose. Maybe they think to be unique can make students lose team spirit and making students in an uniformity could help them to concentrate more in studies instead of appearance? I dunno~~~~


I am curious if there is a similiar thing in your place.

yep i'm here to rant again LOL

i am feeling like crying right now LOL
well.. i could cry now HAHA but.. well i dont know it just seems weird to suddenly cry while doing math, dont you think? xD
i guess the pressure has really gotten into me xD

it's nothing really big, seriously it shouldn't be anything serious but i just cant help but to worry about it xD
i worry too much! geh!

let see.. i have math test this thursday (and i am preparing for it right now) cuz i didn't have time to revise during the weekend =/ (programming took 6 hours i guess; so i had to stay up on friday, saturday morning, i slacked a bit but was learning electronic systems which a few questions took forever since it becomes very confusing =/ and i slept early that night because i was too exhausted that i can't even sit right =/ sunday.. i was revising telecomunication and internet protocols + application which i've done covering only 3 chapters =/ 5 + 3 chapters more before this wed - since i went to the lecturer and said "i actually can't fully understand about the communication systems and she was like.. ookay, meet me this wed and i'll answer any questions you have..
sunday night; doing electronic systems tutorial work again and then did the example of test sheet 1)

i want a proper weekend! where i can just sit here, staring at the monitor, photoshop something!!
not studying my ass off like weekdays!!

yeah i'm complaining because i haven't really have time to be busy doing nothing!

i have 2 more tests (on programming and electronic systems in 2 weeks time) and lots of lab report (which i usually finish up on the same day LOL - so that i wont be bothered about it ever again)

that was phew! cuz if all tests are this week, then i might be in trouble LOL
i tend to forget things easily no matter how much i do it
so i need to refresh all things again =/

today.. i only had lab session for programming
so since i've done the lab sheet during the weekend, i could do other things during the lab
i wanted to try pinging and use the mathlab for the graph thingy but guess what? i couldn't ping!!
it came out as error! i was like.. wtf??!!!
i tried at home and it was just alright!
dang! i couldn't try the mathlab software =/
and i cant download the trial version too =/
isn't that frustrating?

and oh guess what?
my lab report for programming, i just realized that i did some mistakes in the flowchart where i spent like.. 2 hours editing all 4 lab sheets!! (1 lab sheet 5 questions)
that pissed me off!
then i was printing those out because i dont think i'd like to take a look at it again LOL (and it's as 2nd backup if my laptop suddenly give up LOL)
and guess what happened? i'm out of ink! bloody hell!! pffftttt
i just changed it!! =/ =/

i got bloody so mad cuz things just don't go my way today no matter how well planned today should be =/
so i sort of start to lose myself

has it been a while since i last not really in reality but in my own world? LOL
i nearly break the plates, bowls, mugs =/ cuz i wasnt concentrating in what i was doing xD
it would be a disaster if i break those =/
i've just broke my blue mug last week =/

geez i am feeling really unhappy!
it's so.. URGHHH!!
damn pressure
damn me who can't deal with it =/

and oh i just got to know something that really break my heart T_T
it really was like.. stabbed me from front
it really hurts =/ and i still can't get over it
i've talked to sis about it; how it shouldn't be like that.. cuz.. it rised my hope a bit before; but now? it's like i got it just because of where i come from =/
eh i'm talking about the scholarship i got from my uni for 4 years (deduction from my fees) =/
i'm grateful that i got it but just guess how down i got when i asked them, "do everybody got this?" cuz i got an email asking me to pick up the letter from the department office and it said.. "Dear ALL"
they said.. "certain COUNTRIES"

WHAAA??!!
so it doesnt matter how much i struggle? it just wont make any difference
so do i have any reason to push myself over my limit? (hey do i know my limit? HAHA i never know my limit =P except if i really break down this time and would never stand again xD)

come on!! that's totally different from what i heard last time!!
last time they said only students who did well on their previous exam (the foundation program) would be getting it
now what?

shit! i just cant calm myself down xD
i'm beginning to complain just about everything! xD
that's so not a good thing

i am losing myself, aren't i? xD

damit! i should calm down xD

Henrik Zetterberg is the current leader of the league with so much points!!! It's crazy!!!
Red Wings power!!!
(Yeah that picture is old... How strange, the guy on the right is currently with the Red Wings...)
Anyway, this section of the blog is for my folks haha...

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Busy day yesterday

Ok, blank out... I forgot what to write... HAHA!
*Edited*

Alright... I was simply busy... Meeting with my squad...

Anyway, Youtube... Many of you may have not seen the screenshots yet... So... As you know, I'm not photogenic, not videogenic and not audiogenic either... HAHA...
Because I look like this:



Ah well... NPB's General Tao time... I was about to fry... Still white... but gotta be gold... :P



Sauce made with blah blah blah (you'll see the recipes in the video)...
It was filmed weeks ago... Not uploaded yet...



Little cousin part:





Videos under production... :)

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Story time

There's this story... I was too busy to write this down earlier for someone... I was supposed to talk about it few days ago haha...

It's based on my dream, but I modified it a little bit... It was a complicated story... Here's how it started...

I've been chosen to be a huge leader in the camp... not only a leader... but a huuuge one...
What are the possible reasons that I'm one?

I think it's because I'm quiet, independent, but very strategical, good in plans and taking things in charge... Dunno... I just speak out the facts people gave about me, that's all... HAHAHA... :P

Ahhh my little cousins are coming tomorrow... nnnNNNOOOoo!
I've filmed my little cousin showing off her skills because I've trained her before and then she has started to train by herself... I wanted to see if she has improved... I've seen nothing impressive so far... She only did a split and jumped on bed and jumped off of it... Nothing special to me... She's supposed to be able to climb a 2 meters wall and jump off of it... I've shot a part of the video where she was jumping in from a window of my room and then she sat on my bed... That was 2 meters and a half high... Congrats, I'm glad that girl didn't disappoint me... :P She's a very good actress! No wonder, she's been a theater popular actress in her school and region... So she jumped in the window and sat down like it was nothing... She has to be a ninja! I trained her to be a ninja so... HAHAHAHA! You'll see, it's just gonna be a bonus part of a funny video... She actually likes to be filmed... "Film meeee film meeeeee!"...

By the way, I'll update my Youtube stuff...
I've already done filming the NPB's General Tao recipes...
Editing left to do... I'll leave that job to my studio crew... They have all types of program... It's gonna be up to them how long it will take until I upload the videos...

I bet you guys miss my voice and all accents... hahaha just kidding...

eh sorry to spoil your mood but i just feel like ranting

gimme just 5-10 min (seriously more than that, i'll be a zombie tomorrow without any sleep =/)

first of all.. i have so bloody much assignments!
okay okay it's not that much but it takes time to calculate, do, or understand it

i'm 98% done with math; only left the last part of the question which got me blur =/
and that pissed me off since it's just the bloody last part before i can put that papers away!!! arghhh!!!
now i feel so dumb!!
i bet it wouldn't be that complicated!!
and it shouldn't be that hard either!!

i know how to do it; it's just a scalar product!!!
but with which?
how to eliminate x1, x2, x3 and have an equation?

that got me thinking and thus, i got confused =/

electronic system...
tutorial 3; true that i haven't learn those yet
as being me, i prefer to finish it up before start to learn it so that i'd read it beforehand and thus easier for me to digest and that would make me a person full with questions to ask once the class end LOL
arghh!! i cant concentrate!! bloody hell!!
caffeine should help me to concentrate!! come on caffeine!! where's the effect??!!!

i haven't gone through the lab sheet for this subject too!!
urghh!!!

telecomunication..
i'm so mad at myself!!
i know that i HATE this subject from it's core LOL
so i sort of like put it as the last thing i'd be doing
bloody hell! i dont want to just pass!
what's the point if i cant get the best grade??!!
farking shit.. i have to revise 5 chapters which i didnt have time to cover last week =/
that's so annoying cuz i know that it would take one whole day to fully understand (and memorize)

and i haven't finish with the tutorials for those 5 chapters cuz i couldnt understand it without adding more notes in my lecture notes!
sheesh!!

programming..
i love this a lot!
every single bits of it!
but.. these 2 last questions on the lab sheet 3 is sort of getting on my nerve!
it shouldn't be hard, just use loops and the if.. else statement
arghh!! why can't i think straight and detect my lousiest error??!!
i spent like 30 min trying to figure out what i did wrong in question 2 where it should have 5 INTEGERS but i entered just bloody 3!
how could that work, right?!!

serious shit i dont think i'll be sleeping tonight
ughhhh!! this is so annoying!!
i'm so pissed off!!

farking shit why can't i be a quick learner?
why don't i have more time? (i shouldnt be wasting my time lurking here and there LOL and complaining)

shiet! this is so frustrating!!

i want to enjoy my weekend without cramming it with all the things that i need to cover!!
urghhh!!!

shiet! i sure will eat bloody much at the eid open house tomorrow since that's the only time i have to have fun =/
once i get back; i seriously in need to revise telecom and electronic system

Special Spider

Few days ago, I was sitting on the couch in a lazy position...
The TV was on, but I was looking at the ceiling...
I suddenly felt my hair moving by itself...
So I was like "Ah it's just my hair..."
Then it kept moving... So I was like "Not you damn spider..." and I turned to look, oh yes it was a yellow spider playing with my hair...
Strange thing is that it didn't get away quickly like any other yellow spiders in panic...
That one calmly went around, moving slowly, taking its time... So it made wonder... I looked away for about 30 seconds and think "That spider is special... who is that?!"
I tried to look back at it and... GONE... I ran around the wall, floor and ceiling... Impossible... Where did it go?! It must have been so quick all of a sudden to disappear like that...

Anyway, that was at the day when I started to see things moving slow... All in slow motion... It was deeply grey outside... The time elapsed too slowly for me...
Water in the shower seemed more detailed and more clear when I looked at it...
I dropped my bottle of water accidentally and out of instinct, I saw it in slow motion and before it even touched the floor, I managed to kick it up and catch it so easily...

Power within me

Do you guys see billions of micro red dots moving quickly when you close your eyes? And you're still able to see them even when your eyes are opened... and sometimes you see the flashy white dots drawing a short line as it's so flashy and it's moving so quick...
Those white dots are so special, I don't see them often... Only when I feel a bit possessed... haha... The billions of micro red dots, I can see it anytime I want, even now...
Am I partially human? All I know is... I'm not normal compared to average humans... and Buddhist monk masters said I have a devastating evil power deep inside of me and I should take care of it because it can take over me when I'm not feeling well... I can be half conscious and half "possessed by the evil power taking over me"... I should not let myself go unconscious and I should keep meditating...

All those strange powers in senses... Maybe it's because I train to be blind to improve my other senses... Human's strongest sense is the 1st sense, the SIGHT... I probably tried to shut this part down to make more space for other senses... It really helps me... I scare a lot of people with all those other senses I've developped... haha...
But that's what I get in return, the 2 types of dots... I still don't know what are the use of those... or it's just a side effect...

Crazy poker gamblers

Then yesterday, it was a poker invitation... Not a tournament this time, but cash game against rich people... I denied the invitation... I'm a tournament type of player because I prefer to eliminate all players and be the huge winner to win the pot...
But cash game, the person can come back with a buy-in, and other rules... I just don't like it... They never "die"...
My friend went for the first time, and he came back to tell me what happened... He was traumatized...
They were overall just 8 people and they said "we're just playing friendly"...
So they started to put 20 bucks or 40 bucks...

At the end of the night, the pot was the amount of 300 000 dollars... 8 f*cking guys who play with a total of 300 000 dollars at the end of the night!?!?! What are they, millionaires or just pure gamblers?! My friend is rich but he obviously escaped first, too scared... He lost 4 000 bucks... Rich but not that rich...
He went there with his wallet which had exactly 4 000 bucks and there, he went out wallet emptied... Other guys brought their scary briefcase full of money (we would guess 100 000 bucks each guys)... He wanted to cry out of the shock and yesterday, he talked to me and said "You were right, never get there again..."
Hahaha... I know how it is to play cash games with rich people... They would never die even though you win 30 000 bucks haha... They would get back with a bigger buy-in and try to beat you... I won 25 000 once but I didn't escape just to respect other players who got back because they want their money back from me... So I play and play until I had just 5 000$ in profit haha... I lost 20 000 in just 3 aggressive plays... 3 guys with unbeatable hands... I left with a profit of 5 000... Better than nothing...

To me, cash game is like... I dunno... I don't have pride to play that... Like there's no winner who holds a title...

Tournament is better... There's no coming back for the losers (no buy-in allowed)... It's a knockout style... and I'm gonna play it again tonight, I'm on fire haha I won 3 huge tournaments in a row... In a tournament of 32 to 64 people split into multiple tables and then slowly reuniting to the final table...
I'm a very aggressive player so if I'm at the final, I'm always first place and far away from others as chip leader... whaha... Like I have 25 000 bucks and the 2nd place has 15 000 bucks... a huge difference in our game... I have a castle of money on the table and it scares others... :D
*Too excited*

Shouts to Suuz again haha! You are my luck in all these... :P
-chu chu- haha!

Who's she?
It's Suuz?!

Suuz who?!

Who cares... It's Sssssiiiiuuuuuuuuuzzyyyyyyyyy!!! (Exaggerating)...
So what I love from her is the fact that she's kind to me even though I was all mean to her... HAHA!
Oh yes I'm gonna miss her when I'll be in training camp for looooong time again but I'll manage to contact her because she's important to me...
It's freaking hard to contact me already so... WHO'S THE LUCKY ONE EH!? Naaah... I'm the lucky one right...

This was part of a dare I asked for... I make it short!

PS. I know this kind of thing came out of nowhere and we may go further in that because I'm gonna ask for more whahaha! Adrenaline booster... :P

Whoever said I was busy to contact you all, blame her!

We had a huge conflict between families a year ago...

Now guess what, my cousin's parents are separated because his dad was just too much into his business (a business that totally has no success)...

I knew that his mom was a good person... His dad is just too... ARRGH!
He made everyone in the family go crazy! But now everyone is leaving him alone...
Even my cousin left his dad to go live somewhere else and he sent his mom to Minnesota to live with their cousins (Oh yes, it's very far from here hahaha)...


What recently happened, it's that the old man got broke... He's a boss of his companies but he kept closing them down one by one because of too much troubles... Now one left, and it's the main one... The core... The headquarter...
That one was nearly dying so he had 2 options... Sell the company... OR... sell his house to save his company because he doesn't have enough money...
He chose to give up his house... Then his son (my cousin) looked for an appartment for for him... but his dad kept criticizing that all those appartments are bad place to live...
He's too used to live in the luxury but now he's broke so he has to learn to live like that... Better than nothing...

All those things lead to a huge fight between families so... my cousin's mom left, everyone left him and there he is, completely alone... Just about 10 employees left to support him...
I knew it was gonna happen...
I predicted it... He's currently slowly suffering but he still never gives up... Never... Even his wife left him and other people, it still didn't wake him up... We'll see how it's gonna end...

Alright, time for me to go eat some steaks with corona beer... :D