i was thinking of writing this earlier WAHAHAHAAH
nevermind.. i'm just trying to remind myself what i had been doing/ taught for this week

classes werent that cramp last week because labs haven't started yet
but i actually am looking forward for the labs HAHA especially for programming xD

i'm taking 4 subjects for this semester
ELE 102 - Electronic Systems
ELE 103 - Telecomunication
ELE 161 - Programming
MAT 111 - Engineering Math 2

Elec sys, we've covered chapter 1 and a bit of chapter 3
chapter 1 was about.. the basic thingy such as power, energy, current etc etc
chapter 2.. resistor and resistance; we still haven't cover much of it yet
chapter 8.. capasitor and capacitance

all those topics, i could still recall it from the foundation course i did last year xD
so it's still alright
i just need to remind myself of a few stuffs

the lecture.. i'd say it.. it's okay
he picked up the important stuffs
so it was ok

his english accent is a bit different LOL
is he italian? but anyway, i'll get used to it xD because it's not that bad
it's just that you have to fully pay attention or you'll lost xD

Telecom, i was ranting how i hate it a few days ago LOL
i don't like the lectures at all
and the notes are confusing
there are so many things to know but she didnt covered all properly
i got lost in this subject
that pissed me off!
everybody else was saying this subject is easy 0_0 but i'm pretty sure they're wrong for saying that
i mean, what's the point of just knowing the 7 layer reference model without knowing what each of those do?
physical - transfer bit stream
link - transmission data over a link
network - transfer info between end systems
transport - end-to-end service for the transfering of message
session - establish, maintain connection
presentation - present details in understandable form
application - access to the OSI environment

telecom just have so many things to be remembered =/

as for this week, we've covered 3 chapters
CS1 - Basic Element (i haven't cover this topic yet)
CS2 - Signal and Bandwidth (and this too xD)
CS6 - Networks and Protocols (mesh, star, bus networks, 7 layer reference model, standards)

math.. uhh we learned the basic (again xD) and covered half of vectors
i like math! HAHAHAHA!
and i love his way of teaching WEE~

programming, i'm learning C language this semester
totally love it!!
the lecture seemed to be... uhh too dragged last week (the important matters were discussed only during the 20 minutes before it ended)
but C programming is fun! =D
i just did the "Hello World!" last night xD
it's for tomorrow's lab LOL

we learned about.. flowchart, and writing C (add comments where suitable)
fun fun!
but i need to memorize the lines EHEHEHE

overall, i love my course! (.... and trying to like telecom)

it does make me stress LOL (wtf.. too much pressure xD) and rant a lot lately
but i'll put up with it ^^
because electronic engineering department rox!

p/s : there are very few girls in my class AHAHAHAAH less than 10! LOL

Hey, haven't posted anything for long time. i dun know what and how to say to make you guys feel happy and funny. but just share with you about two pcs of news:

the good one: my 7 days' holiday will come soon and i will go back home to share it 
                     with my parents. the only thing that i am worrying about is i dun know if
                     i could bouthe the ticket back to shanghai from my hometown. there
                     are really too many perople here, in china!    
                    

the bad one: our office is really a "poison room" now. cus our office is newly innovated
                   and full of the smell of paint and some other chemical glues. it really
                   makes us dizzy and feel uncomfortable~~~ 

I am so unfortunate, ain't i?   -_-

Well... AG is beyond ridiculously quiet.... its like a Ghost town anymore... a bunch of ancient ruins on the internet...  So like.. i know everyones busy with school and all... but no one has the time to come in and leave even one post??? Like what youre doing for the day? or next few days even? And the most odd out of it all... is NPB..    NPB never leaves for so long without saying/doing at least something on AG...  he hasnt done anything on Youtube either. Did you die dude?
I just wonder what's happening to the community....  All the regulars have gone silent. I admit, I'm not leaving many posts...  but i mean.. no one else has left much and surely no one has replied to any of mine. Has everyone given up on AG or is everyone seriously that busy? Well... i'll start posting in this blog again at least...  cause some new stuff has happened for me and i guess i'll at least put it out there just In the case that anyone Might be interested for a moment. I wont expect it though. Uh...  well yeah... i have been pretty busy myself but i still come to AG like once every 3-4 days or so, even if i dont say anything.
Right now i have to get back on the grind... the 30-45 min i set asside for a break is probably over now (i havnt been watching the clock) so thats another couple hours of studying i should get back to.

Ah~~~~ This afternoon, I went to the dance experiencing course and was considering if I would / should  join the group and learn some young and cool things there.
 
I reaaly like dancing but I can't. In the experiencing course this afternoon I surely tried some basic movement of REAGGEA & Hip-Hop. My feeling is: the Reaggea is really sexy but a little difficult. Maybe just because my bone was too old to make some coherent and lithe movement.... but the basic Hip-Hop is not so hard for me..haha~~~

Maybe I will take it next Saturday. Of course, I have to pay for it.......

Ah...money money money!!!!

As shy as I am not...
Well okay, basically I'm saying that I used to be really shy and these days... I'm not that shy. But even in my current state... i feel like such an ass when I have to join a group for a class. So here i am in Accounting 211 and... well we have to form groups... but i missed the first week, so everyone formed groups already.  Well... because I pussed out on looking for a group on friday, because of this remnantal shyness...  And so, i totally missed the assignment that was due on friday...  For one thing, i didnt know it was due TWO HOURS after the class. Anyway, thats my own fault, and now im going to get some mean CiCi's pizza buffet.  Then tonight i gotta study a bunch of kanji. Well.. typically only the new ones for the chapter... because there is a quiz tomorrow.

I'm Bumpin the newest Monkey Majik album. the single "Sora wa Maru de" was all over the radio when i left... probably on oricon top 10 (not sure, i havnt looked)  so if anyone is interested or...really bored and lookin for somethin to do...  check it out. Theres also the music vid on youtube.

Aha, finally, I have my own blog as an AG member here!

Because I am a Chinese and can't use English as well as my mother language, please dun laugh at me lah~~~XD

Thannnnnk you so much!  (n_n)

as the title say.. how do you deal with it?
i do ask those 2 questions a lot eh?

pressure.. if me to deal with it.. well it depends xD
it either would push me further forward.. or maybe backwards (become more lazy and give up on everything and just sleep xD - and wake up regretting and only then gonna struggle for the lost time) xD
but anyway.. pressure doesnt really affect me much (a bit much.. but not too much? xD) - if you count out worrying too much that my hands + feets become seriously cold, feel like vomiting, i cant eat much, feel like having a fever, would take a painkiller before tests, having all those what if i fail sort of questions etc etc

err.. oookay.. pressure do make me crazy xD
i should.. i mean MUST MUST overcome it or i'd just shorten my lifelength xD

anyway.. my main question that i'd love to know the answers is.. HOW DO YOU DEAL WITH FAILURE?


 from this time onwards, i should just accept the fact that whether i like it or not, there would be something that i might fail in xD (not that i want to, but still.. just tell me how many percent do i have for passing everything? 0%!!)

for me, failing in something really is.. like being stabbed from front, getting your eyes poke from someone you trust the most, being pushed down from a really high cliff etc etc (i'll just leave that to your imagination xD) - i just want to say that.. it's seriously a super big shock!

i failed.. once last year during my 1st semester in physics 1 (wth? a born to be idiot or what to fail that? xD) for the first test and BARELY pass in physics 2 during my 2nd semester
it was devastating.. but not that much that i'd rather die (or do something stupid xD) because i admit i didnt really understand those topics, and i didnt work hard enough (how the hell do you think 5 questions for each chapters would be enough??!!) xD
too bad i'm not that awesome person who dont need to work hard HEH!

-- now that i think back... how did i get an A for physics 2? 0_0
especially when i was just BARELY pass during the test?

am i cursed to fail in any objectives type of questions?
it's not that i'd like to think of it like that.. but seriously.. i'd screw badly when it's objectives type questions! 0_0
i rarely screw up when it's subjectives type
and it's not once or twice like that
it has been.. AGES!
geh! must be my mindset or something xD

anyway.. i was a bit out of topic xD

back to topic.. another test i had.. not sure in sem 1 or 2..
i worked super hard for it, really prepared (i guess xD) and i actually got an A for it =P
but my prof looked at my name on his list wrongly and said.. "YOU GOT 56%!"
.. well.. still it ain't that bad.. 16% more than just barely pass xD it's a... C =/

i went back to my room and cried like i was dumped or something like that xD
and that really.. crushed my world at that time =P
i became gloomy and depress; but not really badly as i was when i first heard from my prof after talked to dad
dad is uber awesome in making me feel better! xD

i wish i could show you my expression after i went out from prof room xD
really is.. PRICELESS!! xD
i'd die laughing if i have a pic of that face xD xD

so... that sort of makes me think.. how would i be like if i really screwed up that time?
just what kind of stupid things would i do? would i just start slacking and mix in with the wrong crowd? start to skip classes? not to give a damn about education anymore? or just stay in my room sulking?

not getting result as what i expected to get is another thing..
failing is something else
in that (previous) case, i was pretty sure to get an A xD cuz i was confident enough - well i sometimes am a bit over confident xD NYWAHAHA

my guess that i cant accept failure well is because i just dont fail a lot xD
i never failed during primary school
twice IN A ROW (damit) during high school when i transfered to another school which i couldnt understand anything the teachers were teaching
.. but i didnt make a deal out of that
in fact.. i didnt care at all xD (because i totally gave up on trying to understand since they cant show me how those things could make any sense, not like any random numbers that suddenly jump around and WOALA! there is the answer! xD - please la.. dont just teach according to the examples in the textbook.. do some writing on the board and show steps by steps HEH!) i wouldnt go to school if i'm that good to understand just from the textbooks =/

hrmm.. i might sound as if i'm blaming others or.. just giving excuses
but seriously.. i'm not someone who could understand everything without being taught by others =P
i wish i'm a quick learner with super awesome memory etc etc
too bad i'm not and i'm learning to accept that i'm not as great as i thought (or want) to be =P

and.. because of that, i bet there will be more things that no matter how hard i try, how hard i struggle.. once in a while.. i'm gonna FAIL =/

well.. what a loser eh? thinking of losing before trying? thinking of failing before even trying? HEHE
not that i want to fail (NO BLOODY WAY i'm gonna fail!)
but if i do.. what advice could you give me?

just how do you think i could stand back on my feet and pretend it was nothing.. just a nightmare?
to keep on looking forward and ignore the past?

someone i know.. just fail in something and she still can laugh at it like it was nothing
while me.. that one failure would haunt me for at least.. months because i can slowly let go of it xD

hrmmm.. or.. is it just my personality problem? xD
where i take things too seriously?

ack! i've written too much xD NYEHEHEHE

first of all.. HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!

uhh... i wish i could celebrate my birthday properly =/
sadly.. that wont happen for the next 4 years too xD EHEHEHEH

may.. is the bloody exam month!! URGHHHH!!!
but oh well.. i might want to make a big deal of it when i'm 21 =P

here in malaysia.. people are making a big deal for being 18 (where it is the legal age to get car license EHEM! and for alcoholic drinks? to smoke? pubs?) well.. that sort of thing xD
now that i think about it.. i did celebrate it sort of more than usual when i turned 18, right? xD WAHAHAHAHA

birthday parties are fun!!
i wish i'm still a lil kid xD
awww so fun!! with all those balloons and colourful stuff hanging around
man.. how i miss that!

i'm craving for vanilla ice cream cake!
urghh!! CAKE!! CAKE!! CAKE!! xD

too bad the bestEST lol cake shop that was only 5 minutes walk from my home had closed down months ago due to.. no customers xD WAHAHAHA

ARGHH!! i'd go have chocolate cheese cake soon
with hope.. they still have it
CHEEEESEEEE CAKE!!!

............. hrmmm.. i'm being random =P
gonna watch anime to reduce my randomness

what do people really want...    I think most ppl really just want to be remembered.
Of course most people want more than that.. but have you ever met someone and had to move on with your life... Did you ever think that you just want them to remember you...      i think most of us feel like that...

i did some thinking a few days ago xD (the day before i went away, to be exact)
well.. this is continuing from my ranting xD

i'm sort of sure that i wont be finding any jobs once uni starts
i might want to join DA contests, because i'll try not to use photoshop or any editing programmes during weekdays hoho
so yeah.. weekend is the only time for ps'ing, anime etc etc

think of it..
what's the use of having jobs etc etc if i'm just gonna drop out from first year?
i have no slightest idea on how it will be like and whether i could cope with it just fine
maybe i'm sounding a bit boastful here.. but i'll be aiming to be in top 50 if i cant be in top 3 (which would get the uni scholarship, 2000 pounds that will be deducted from the fees)
i'm pretty sure i wont be getting any scholarships or loans; so if i do well in my first year, i can try again for those scholarships (even though applying for those are totally pain in the ass!!)

so, instead of worrying about all those ridiculous stuffs, it's better if i just stay focus on what i should be doing and leave the money matters to my parents xD
i might be using all their money, but.. please do bear with it for these few years
i'll pay back once i graduated + have a decent job
well.. i like the new me where i dont hesitate before doing something anymore (sometimes xD)
wee~
now i just need to think positively and just accept things as they are

1 week to go before going back to london
i might want to start borrowing books from the library (of course using my sis ID xD) since i'm gonna enrol 1 week after arriving xD

well.. i'm just gonna enjoy my last few days at home doing fun stuff and drive whereve i want =.=
u.u surely gonna miss my car PWAHAHAHAHA